Random-ness! =)

We're leaving in about 3 days and there's no excitement at all. Weird probably because I can't think of how dad would do without us or MOM. But his a big guy so he'll do well, I know. I'm just missing him as early as now :c

We organized a small party at the kubo yesterday. Our close relatives were there. It was impromptu actually but it was still fun because everyone came. It became sort of a picnic. They are the best relatives in the whole wide world. Once I'm with them, all we do are tell stories, laugh, joke about ourselves, make fun of everyone, do chores altogether, etc. It's totally different when compared to my relationship with other people, most likely because we grew up together. Like we see each other every weekend since I was little. It was fun really

Jill is in Pagudpud and I envy her! Even if they are telling that to reach that place "mapagod ka lang and mapudpud pwet mo", I don't care. It's a piece of heaven in this hell-like world. That's what other people say din, I don't have any idea. Wahahahah.

Ninang Veni, thanks for the sermon you gave me the other day. Even if I was really mean that day, you kept the calmness and told me think of the good things and still be thankful. I love you ninang. Life talaga has this weird twists and turns. Each of us has our own crosses to bear. We just have to deal with it without giving up and without stepping on other people.

It's hard but we have to love life. I do.

Life moves on.. and so do I…

It feels weird that everytime I close my eyes, I'm crying. This isn't an exaggeration. The super hyper Diane isn't the one you'll see. I still smile, but not as often as I used to. The problems just kept piling up until it came to a point that the heaviest was on top, I can't or don't know how to recover or stand up and bring the smile.

 As my mom states it, I've been used to getting all I want in an instant. It's apt time for me to give it to other people. Probably it's true. But still, it's hard to accept. Especially that I prepared for it. Hmm but not the same way as Dy prepared for it.

Anyway, I still feel happy. I'm thankful that I have my bestfriend to confide with me. And Med who was always checking me out if I was okay. I really appreciate that. There are these people who aren't there when bad times come along but there were very few who were still there to support me. Thank you. You guys know who you are. I won't name you all.

Anyway enough for that. I'm still on the coping stage, cannot talk about it that much yet. But hey, I'll move on. Ako pa.